Being a high school student is a big change for the course of my life. Of course, I'm still studying in the same school that I've been studying in since the first grade. I'm studying in one of the class where it mostly focuses on Science and Mathematics, with the other two being Arts and Maths classes and Art and Languages classes. I felt a little bit weird when I woke up on the first day of the school after a short period summer break and realizing that I'm now a 10th grade high school student. The first thing that I thought was "Oh God, I need to have more responsibilities on that thing and the other things too. What is happening? I don't understand". Well, that thought stayed with me for a total of twenty two seconds before I decided to take a shower and get ready for the school.
There's also a lot of adjustments that I'm going through and it's pretty tough, if you ask me. Everything's changed. The way I study, the way I interact with my friends or even the way I feel about being in a classroom with my friends. My old friends, to be precised. Sometimes, I feel quite isolated. Not because they isolate me, I isolate myself - fearing that if I do something wrong, how are they going to feel or see me. Are they going to see me as their friend? Or will they reject me and let me dry out with the feeling of alienation? There's so many unanswered questions that need to be answered. Some may say that because I'm a teenager, so, I'm easily confused by the circumstances that occur everyday around me. I do agree with the fact that I'm a teenager and sometimes I'm confused by the things that happen and affect me, both in direct and indirect ways.
After all these ramblings about my high school life, I still need to change and to be changed. Not to only be smarter and gaining more understanding in my life. But also to be able to transform into something else. I think that it does take time to be able to transform into something even greater or maybe even something that I might not be able to understand clearly.
But I do think that I still have long roads to go. Long, hard and painful roads. But I'm willing to take the journey on them. No matter how they scare me or hurt me, I'll try to get up and continue my journey.
